You Are Here [Mark X]
“They are all just beginners” I heard, as I made my way out after class. Sad to say, it was advance class.
Stunned, embarrassed and a jumble of feelings came around, making me somewhat confused.I don’t know how to react to that.Admitting, I felt that I am in the middle of nowhere even if I had been regular to my classes or at least hitting the minimum amount of hours I’ve set for each week.
After taking up yoga, I had long forgotten that it was a structured process- like school. There is no grade, no level, no marks and most of the time, I’ve bought into the idea of you-do-what-you-can-and-rest-when-you-are-tired. And so begin, the story of how I’ve been sneaking into classes according to my mood, how much of energy I think I have and what I feel I would want.
That judgement brought me back and I thought ” Hey, I’ve been terrible. Going to classes when I am not even qualified.” But heck, wasn’t I assured that I can rest, do as much as I can, etc? Now I am torn.
After that statement, I realised that I don’t like being categorize. It is embarrasing that from that statement that the beginner status simply ripped me apart ( yes, call me shallow on being such a sensitivo on status), it made me realised that my practice did not improve - afterall.Demotivating. I hate to say, we all had enough of categorizing and hirearchies in the rat race and my yoga classes, even a mere hour is good enough for me to forget that I have a level/ status to adhere to.
Just the other day, I thought, I can be happy when I am contented. My friend disagreed saying that if I am contented, I don’t push myself, thus will not improve. I think, I am not competing with anyone but myself. I go my own pace and the end result is mine. The end result ( is there?) if it’s too little, it’s mine. If it resulted to a tall poppy syndrome when I finally crawl out of my shell to watch others, it’s still mine.I never started with an intention to be ambitious/looking-for-competition in the room by looking around, except to know what’s going on ( usual thing to be blur halfway down the class).
So, to categorize or not to categorize? I’ll opt for the latter.
Hey, Wake Up
We are human afterall. Yet still how often did we get angry, nasty, rude unintentionally without full conciousness of our reaction at that spur of the moment. And then every sentence that come out contains a ‘but’ or an ‘if’ and other like of such words making all that we want to do seems - unachievable/unreal.
That, already taken part of our conciousness, didn’t it? More than that, the most common result will be, people feeling empty, at crossroads, offtrack - simply jaded.
Good is, there are endless books out there promising to give us the answer to life, to fill that missing something we are yearning, and longing and dissatisfied about. Bad is, almost no one can give adirect answer but ways to find and fill that void.
Simply, put it’s probably the matter of turning around how to see things and situation.
Would like to share this short clip which could be of relevance.Enjoy~!
How Brave
Something to share. For Courage and Strength! Not nececssary in IT environment…still it’s erm cute.
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Twits on Bends
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